12:07 am:
I swallow the tiny orange pill. Migraine, the neurologist had named the bastard on theright side of my head, after probing me with questions about my personal life & lifestyle. He had his hand under his chin & made eye contact. I had my hand on my Michael Kors 'Cynthia' satchel & made up some lies about my daily routine.What a dull suburban existence I painted for him. If he only knew....
1:45 am:
I'm staring at a meme of a cat clawing at a donut from
a distance & then withdrawing, like it's an explosive.
[Caption: 'Me on a diet']
I imagine myself at ZARA doing the same when I see another winter jacket I don't really need.
The pill should make me drowsy by now. My head throbs & my right eye twitches.
I shut my eyes.
2:20 am:
I'm running my fingers on a thick vein that's popped up on my forehead.
It feels like a worm, eww! Was Monica's Thanksgiving vein like this?
Arghh! Useless pill! 1 week & nothing!
I'll call the Doctor tomorrow.....
*Oh, c'mon! You don't need a CT Scan! Don't treat me like your fucking enemy!
I'm your friend & I'm here to tell you something
that's already in your head. You know something.
What is it? I will not leave until you see it!
OPEN YOUR EYES! OPEN YOUR EYES, GODDAMNIT!!!*
3:43 am:
I'm sweating. My eyes & pillow are wet. I can't move.
I saw. On the ceiling. Faces...images....answers.
Like iron on quicksand, I sink into slumber in seconds.
11:16 am:
I toss 7 tiny orange pills I no longer need in the bin. Tricyclic Antidepressants, Google informs.
For treatment of Migraines, Depression & Bedwetting.
10-year-old CZ finally gets an explanation for the humiliating recurrent bedwetting.
What child can link susu on the bed to depression? I forgive her now.
Past & Present mysteries. Unraveled.
Follow your heart, they say. But your head.... your head will always
give you more than you bargained for - if you'd only listen to what it has to say.
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Top: ZARA
Jeans: Aeropostle
Hairband: Forever 21
Lipstick: Fenty Beauty Stunna Lip Paint in Uncensored.
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Take care,.. My sis also suffers Migraine very badly,.. She tried some home remedies, also consulted doctors, but none helped,..
ReplyDeleteHave courage, dear heart. We are all in the same loop, till better times. <3
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